Just was looking on facebook today at some pics of my friends.  It really saddens me today that we have grown so far apart with school, marriages, work, etc.  The person that I invested my life in (before Keith) I dont ever talk to.  I feel like in a way it is my fault, because I met Keith, I gradually stopped hanging out with her.  Now she is married too, and we never see each other, though we live but a couple miles apart.  Every couple of months I call her and tell her I miss her and want to get together.  She always says she wants to also.  She also says that she has been wanting to call me, but she never does.  I want to put our friendship back together again, I just dont konw that she will put the effort into it.  Thinking about all the things we used to do together makes me sad.  Anyone have any advice for me?

This also reminds me of something that I want to work on in myself and hope I never pass this trait onto my chldren.  I have a hard time getting past prejudice's.  I see a lot of attitudes in myself (when Keith points them out) that my parents have.  I dont want to be like this.  I certainly dont want to pass this on to my kids.  Things that I see people looking the other way about, I find myself staring at it.  I am trying to work it out with God's help.

One last little story.  If I had a favorite student, it would be Marcelino.  He is a Hispanic student that speaks very limited English.  Today at school, I asked him to teach me some Spanish.  He taught me to say I like your shoes (amos tu sabotos, spelling is probably wrong).  So when I saw him I would tell him in spanish I like your shoes.  He would just smile at me like get a load of this girl.  Anyways, he was looking for me a little bit later and I said Marcelino Aqui!  He came over to me and said, who told you that one.  I said, I already knew it, are you proud of me?  He said so matter of factly, yes.  It was a great day.

I got the job at WOCS!!!!!!!!!!!

I will be the 2nd grade teacher!  I am excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I passed my OPTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now all I have to do is apply for my license!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Funny story first.  Keith hates Valentines Day.  So any time I want to get him something, he says he doesn't want anything.  Well I cant do that for some reason, so I thought, hey I have this card that I bought, but didnt give to him for some reason, and I'll write a little note in it, and that will be the kind of gift he likes.  So i get the card out and write in it, seal it up, and when he got home, I gave it to him.  He opened it up and read and said, Happy Anniversay huh?  I didn't even read the card before I wrote in it!  I was a little embarrassed.

Anyways, I know that most every wife thinks this, but I know it is true for me.  I have the best husband in the world.  He didnt get me anything for Valentine's Day, even though I told him I wanted something.(He hates the holiday remember)  So I was upset because I just knew that my friends at school were going to ask what he got me for Valentine's day and I would have to tell them, he didnt get me anything.  So I told him that I was mad.  He apologized, but didnt say anything else about it.  Well the next morning when I was getting around to go to student teach, he told me that I could go spend $100 at Maurices for Valentines Day.  I was excited of course.  But not one of my friends said anything to me about Valentines Day.  I felt like a jerk and thought about how much Keith really does love me.  I dont work at all, so our income is really his income, though I spend it as if it were my own.  He bought me a new car for my Birthday/Graduation.  He doesnt care if I give offerings to Chi Alpha or take my friends out to eat, even though it is his money.  A lot of times it is his idea for me to call up my friends and take them out.  Almost every thing I have, he gave to me in some way.  And I got mad at him for not getting me anything for Valentines Day, so he tells me I can go spend his money on clothes for me.  And he truly didnt want anything for Valentines Day.  He never wants anything for his birthday either.  I am selfish and he isnt.   I really am lucky to have such a wonderful husband.

Spending your birthday without the one person you want to share it with sucks.

but at least I get to see my grandma.